We have a strong little one in there :)

It's been crazy times over here lately but all in all things are wonderful. Jim is IN and keeping very busy with his new job and I am here trying to keep things moving along on the home front in MO. Not easy but we are managing the best we know how and hoping soon something will happen and we can all be back together again in one place.

I had my regular doctors appointment today and he said all looks like it is going along as it should. He confirmed again that our little one has a VERY strong heartbeat and that's all I needed to know. I am a week or so away from feeling this little one move and sometimes I get a little worried when I am not sure what is happening in there. But when I heard the heart beat I was all good and ready to go on about my day with a smile:) I had some blood work drawn to run for more genetic testing stuff but not too worried about anything coming back negative.

He went over my test results from the fetal translucency test I had done a while ago and said it all looked great and didn't see anything to be alarmed about. He scheduled me for my 20 week ultrasound at the same place where they will check out all the internal organs from the brain all the way down to the toes so that one should be pretty exciting to see as well :)

Jim and I will know hopefully on June 7 if we will have a son or a daughter and I am very excited for that one. More excited that Jim will be able to be there to witness it all too for the first time and he is just going to be as amazed as I was the first time I saw our little one move around and stretch it's little legs and arms. I will update then and hopefully have fun pictures to share.

We are truly blessed and as each day passes our miracle is closer and closer to being in our arms very soon. We don't take our miracle for granted ever and are just enjoying what each new day brings our way.

All is going great

It's been a little while since I last posted but all is still going wonderful and as it should. This is great news of course :)

We are excited about the upcoming ultrasound on June 6th in 3D/4D style to determine if we will have a little boy or a little girl :) kee kee kee Then instead of calling this one little one we can start calling him or her by name. That will be totally cool.

My belly actually looks like a cute little baby belly now and it shows very well even with my shirts on. I just love it and I am just smiles all the time. Feeling better and just enjoying the journey now is just amazing. I am waiting to feel the first kick or little hand push so I know our little one is doing well in there still. They tell me I should start feeling that stuff towards the end of this month so lots of fun stuff to look forward to.

The fur kids and myself will be making the trip to see Jim in IN for the first time over Memorial Day weekend and I'm excited. I have not been there yet so it will be nice to see the areas he has told me about that he would like to live once our home in MO sells. Plus, I can see him for a longer amount of time because I can leave and come back pretty much whenever unlike him. So it will be a nice time and I am really looking forward to it.

Good news came our way

It's been 10 days since our Nuchal Translucency test and no word from the doctor. Go figure. I had to call them only to hear...we have the tests results not sure why you weren't called. Story of my life these days. Drives me crazy.

Anyway, all the news was good and nothing showed as a concern at this time. This leads me to believe our little miracle is tucked away in there safe and sound and growing strong and healthy like we pray for every day. Jim and I have decided we will NOT be doing an amnio and all that kind of testing is now done. The rest is in God's hands and we will see what November brings. But right now I know in my heart our little one has all it's arms, legs, fingers and toes so I am happy and thankful for that piece of mind :)

My baby belly is growing and I rub it all the time. I am feeling so much better that I am actually really enjoying it all now. The first trimester was difficult with the sick feeling and wanting to sleep all the time. I t was hard to enjoy like I wanted to but in my heart I was always smiling and it helped me get through the rough days. I had to laugh and smile yesterday as I was getting dressed with clothes other than sweats tshirts and sweatshirts. I found a pair of my kacky capri's I use to wear to work and I thought to myself, no way will these fit me now. But I tried anyway. I was shocked, they fit me great I just could not button them. This tells me that I am truly ALL belly and still no butt...lol. To still fit into a size 0 at 14 weeks pregnant...awesome. kee kee kee I know it may not last but I can enjoy it while I can still do it right? lol

My next appointment is on the 27th with the doctor I really don't like. It will just be a routine check up so I figure I can manage one more visit with him before my reg doctor comes back. We are having our gender determination ultrasound on Sat June 6 at noon. Jim will be home that weekend and will be able to go with me and see our miracle in action for the first time. I can't wait. He will be amazed. Hopefully our little one will want to cooperate that day and won't be shy so we can start calling him or her by name and I can go SHOPPING :) LOOK OUT.

We will keep you all posted.

Still on cloud 9 today

I have to say that yesterday was the most amazing part of our miracle journey.

I started out nervous in the morning but also excited. Nervous about the test and what it would tell us but excited to know I would be seeing our little one for the first time in human form :0) lol

I met up with my girlfriend Carrie and her youngest son Conner who is 5. We had a nice breakfast at Panera Bread and headed to the appointment. As they called my name and we all walked to the door I asked the nurse if I could use the washroom or if she needed me to have a full bladder? She said lets get a few pictures and then you can use the washroom and we will continue from there. Okay :) She put the hot goo on my belly and then it all started. I laid there in complete amazement at what I was seeing and a smile so big I don't think it ever left my face for the rest of the day. Carrie and Conner were sitting to my left as the technician started doing her thing.

First she measured our little one to see if it was within the range it should be for 12 weeks along. All looked good there so we continued. She started at the top of our little one's head and you could see the brain itself and how it splits down the middle to right and left sides. Very cool. I wish they had given me that picture. Think I will ask for a copy when I go back. lol Then she showed the who body and started looking for the arms and legs. The little one really liked the position it was in because really didn't want to move from that spot. It was so funny. She had me roll over onto my right side and the little one started moving all over the place. It was just incredible. I laughed and Conner just thought what he was seeing was the coolest thing ever. She found all 4 limbs and I was glad to see the little arms, hands, legs and feet. So far all was looking awesome. I had forgotten that this was also a test to check for any abnormalities there might be since I am going on 39 years old. sigh :( Conner asked at one point if it was a boy or a girl and we said we did not know yet but will soon. He says, "If it's a girl she will come out with a bow in her hair" we all laughed and just thought that was too cute. Kids, just gotta love em :)

Towards the end of this fun journey she did manage to get a photo with the little one sucking it's thumb. That one just finally put me over the edge and the tears came. Happy tears of course but they still came. Then that part was over and it was time to give blood. The worst thing in the world for me and it had to be from the tip of the finger to boot. Yikes. I went into instant panic mode it was horrible. You would think I would be so use to that by this point in time but guess I will always and forever be a baby when it comes to that stuff. I survived and my finger tip is black and blue but it's all good. So know we wait for about 10 days to get the results and go from there. Hoping it all comes back okay because if they see an thing remotely off they want an amnio at 21 weeks. That just doesn't sit well with me and not sure the risk of a miscarriage is worth it to me. So, keeping our fingers crossed and praying all will be wonderful. I know it will be and I just know this little one is strong and a fighter :)

I have attached 3 photos from the viewing yesterday. Enjoy

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sokofamily/3486165784/

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sokofamily/3486165928/

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sokofamily/3486166080/

Scared me to death

Yesterday I went in for my regular OB appointment that I do every month. My regular doctor is on maternity leave and not due back until early part of June :( UGH So I had the doctor that is filling in for her.

I have never seen this doctor before and honestly, not sure I want to again. It was horrible. I was in a great mood feeling good and enjoying the sun being out for a change. Then, he walked into the room. He introduced himself and then started in right away with things like this:

Has your doctor gone over the many risks a woman your age could face during pregnancy?
Did she talk to you about these tests you should really have done to make sure the baby is okay?
And it just went on and on. It was horrible. I was scared to death and almost in tears. Then he proceeds to tell me that I really should have an amnio at like 22 weeks for even further testing just in case it shows something bad I still have time to terminate. I think my jaw just hit the floor and I wanted to bolt right out of there as fast as I could and never go back. My brain was going crazy and I was just a wreck.

Then he did the tummy check for the heart beat and when he found it he looks at me and says, "This little one has a really strong healthy sounding heartbeat for only being at 11 1/2 weeks." I wanted so much to say that this little one is giving you the big middle finger for scaring it's mother like you just did and that this little one is very healthy and will show you!"

I was smiling after that and knew the appointment was over. I walked out the door and had to stop at the appointment desk as I have my first genetic testing done next Tuesday and I'm very nervous. Thinking positive but it's still scary. Wish Jim was here to go with me but my good friend Carrie is kind enough to take some time in the morning to go with me so I won't be all alone. Bless her heart and I am so glad she will be there with me.

My belly is big enough to where I can no longer try to button my jeans so I mostly wear sweats right now. I love looking at my belly though and rub it all the time. I think it looks awesome and just perfect in every way :) lol

Keep everyone posted after Tuesdays appointment. Keep us in your prayers and fingers crossed :) We appreciate it. Thanks

Maternity shopping...what fun

Okay, so as most of you know I am a tiny little person normally. Well, I am only at 3 moths and I can not button my jeans anymore and leaving them undone the zipper now creeps down. That is not a good thing at all. lol

So, today I decided to look at maternity clothes. With me being so tiny even the girl at the store said my belly is one of the bigger ones she has seen at 3 months. My doctor has already warned me that this little one only has one direction to go....straight out in front of me. Yikes, belly heavy I am going to be. lol

This lady at the store was very nice and really helpful. I was glad she was there and able to help me with things. I found some really cute tops and two pair of pants. I just don't understand though why the clothes have to be so darn expensive. It's just crazy and just frustrates me. Online pricing on maternity clothes just off the wall unbelievable. No way would I pay those prices. I left the store feeling pretty good about the choices I made and thinking I would be looking pretty cute soon. ha ha ha

Then I went to Kohls to look around. They were having a great sale. Love the buy one get one free items. Yeppers. I figured that the babydoll tops would also work just fine for me during the next few months at a fraction of the cost. So I bought a few things there and called it a day before my husband really got upset with me. lol

I was just enjoying being OUT of the house for a change and feeling great enough to do so. It's been a while. Hopefully the second trimester will be much better for me. I am praying anyway that is the case :) Think positive right? :)

Fast and furious

Lots of things have been happening around here and not feeling well here and there makes it hard to keep up our blog at times.

We had a very nice Easter as I was so excited to have Jim home for the weekend as well as our friends Georgia and her husband Cedric. We had a great time and lots of yummy food. Then Sunday came and they all left and I cried because I didn't want any of them to go.

Jim is doing well with his new job in In and they keep him really busy. This is a good thing though because now I don't have to listen to him say how bored he is all the time :0) lol

No home showings yet but we are hoping for something soon. The realtor brought in about 8 other realtors to view the house today so you just never know. Just trying to stay positive and hope for the best here soon.

I have attached a photo of my 9 1/2 week belly taken on 4/8/09. This is the one sign that really lets me know I am actually pregnant right now :0) lol:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sokofamily/3442329659/